~SMILE~

Yesterday, Burt and Whye Leng let us do an assignment during the midweek service.
We were asked to make something out of the plasticine that can represent us and also our relationship with the church.

I made a little cookie with a smiley face~
Everybody was wondering, and most of them were saying that it's a little small biscuit.
However, this little smiley biscuit is very meaningful to me.

Before I became a Christian, I always wanted to be the happiest person on earth.
When I faced unhappy moments, when I was being betrayed,
I had always wanted to be the happiest person.
Because I want to show those who had hurt me, betrayed me that I can still live as a happy person, despite what they had done to me.
At the same time, I wanted to show off that I am more happier than they do.
However, I was really naive.
Outwardly, I was always happy.
But inwardly, I felt so empty.
And the happiness that I felt had always being brushed off so easily whenever I was being left alone.
It didn't last.

After I became a Christian, I always heard different disciples shared about my cheerful and jovial character.
At first I thought that those are not true.
But slowly, I understood what they meant.
I found myself not only being able to smile always, but eventually, my cheerfulness had impacted people around me, and it made them happy as well!
I am really glad that after I knew God, I am still a happy girl.
But the kind of cheerfulness in me is very different from the one that I had before I became a Christian.
I am not only happy always, but my cheerful character had left impact in people's life, and this made them smile as well.
I am no longer a shell that smile from the outside, but carries a sour face from the inside.
Now, I am a happy person from the inside out.
That's why I made the little smiley cookie for my assignment.

Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very very
Mad world Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world Mad world
Mad world Mad world

Love listening to this song,
it's kind of sad,
and a lot to ponder upon.
Feel moved at "The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had"
The lyrics portrait a lot of hopeless situations,
such as people were working hard for their own lives,
perhaps, life is too tough for them,
but they just have no time to mourn about it.
And when the best dream you've ever had is the dream in which you're dying,
it's even more hopeless, like, nothing else better can appear in your dream.
Daily battling with death, it's really not easy.
Sometimes I thought, well, my life is good enough,
I'm not in such situation.
Yeah, that's true.
The life I'm having is never hopeless because I have God.
Perhaps people around don't think that they are hopeless or helpless,
perhaps they might think that they are having a good life.
But, is that so?
Are their souls decaying without them realizing?
What will happen if one day they found out that everything they've earned will be vanished in a second.
What if the life they are living is exactly the life that's being portrait in the lyrics of Mad World?
Yeah, this world is a mad world,
without us realizing, it has become a mad world.
Perhaps, it's in a worser situation than the one being described in the lyrics?

A Different Kind of Baby-sitting

It's been an interesting journey to babysit three considered "elderly" kids. I mean, they are really great kids! When their parents were away, they missed them, and they wrote cards for them. It's so heart-warming that they will post the cards on their fridge, so that when daddy and mommy come back, they will see it. I felt amazed also, at this age, 6, 8, and 10, they know how to operate a computer, they have their own emails, and they can email daddy and mommy whenever they want. They are really discipline! They know what should they do after school. First wash up; then homework; play; have dinner; watch TVIQ; and then go to bed before 8.30p.m.

There were times that I wonder, what will it be if I have my own kids. Definitely it's not easy to train them to behave that way. Sabrina told me she used to be lazy and never do her homework, and when her parents found out, she got 50 spanks! I know it's painful, for her and her parents.However, when you look at the outcome, you will think that it's all worth the pain.

There were times also that I thought, it will be so fun and so precious to see how your own children grow up, seeing them trying to talk like adults and act like adults, it's like a growing process for them. How I wish next time if I have my own kids, I really want to spend those precious moments together with them. And when I see them boasting about what their parents had done for them, I just feel like, when I have my own kids, I hope to be a parent where my children will boast about my goodness as well. I think they feel really proud of their parents because of their love for the children.

I know how it feels when parents are not around. I just hope that in this one week time, at least I can always be with them during dinner and after dinner, to watch TVIQ together, and to watch other movies during weekend. And we found out that, there are so many things that we never know, but we've learned from TVIQ's Johan The Young Scientist. It sounds like Malaysian produced educational programme, but I think, it's just great!

Today is just a second day, still have another 5 days to go! ^^

Our Memory

Fall in love with this song recently,
it's one of the theme song in "My Lucky Star"
This is actually a very touching drama,
(With quite a bit of scandals at the back...)
you'll get emo watching it, or even get emo when you listen to this song.
This is the drama that made me start admiring Jimmy Lin again,
not because of his look,
but his acting really had improved quite a bit~
Hmm... Kind of listed him in "My favorite actor" list...

Clash of Titans

I've been waiting with excitement and patiently for this movie!
Finally it's here!


The previous few movies had been really really disappointing,
I really hope that this one will be better.
However, still, I don't want to put too much of expectations.


The one that I watched was 3D movie.
At first I thought, the story line of this movie is really kind of kiddish.
But, when think of it as a remake of the "Clash of Titans" in 1981,
the story line is still acceptable.


I like the action scene.
Well, yeah, I love action movie.
However, with the 3D effect, everything moves too fast!
I can't really see clearly...
But I know, the fighting scene is kind of cool.
I guess I'm gonna watch for a second time,
and it's really tempting to make a vow that...
I will never watch any movie in 3D anymore!!! (>_<)

Oh, another plus point for this movie,
I agree with Gabrielle that the creatures that they've made is really fantastic!
Love them!

Let go the pain, waiting for a better tomorrow

Wrote down the insights from the Quiet Time I've done for the past two weeks (=.=)
A lot came into my mind.
Recently, it seems like God is using every opportunities to challenge me to find security in Him.
When I was reading the book of Genesis, looking at Joseph's life, I realize how tiny my faith in God is!

Before this, I was struggling badly to let go the hurts that my friends had caused during my schooling days.
It's really painful and unbearable, something that I will never forget.
When I read the story about Joseph, I realized how a person who put his confidence in God will handle all these situations.
I thought, when Joseph was being sold by his brothers, definitely he didn't feel good as well.
He might be thinking on the way to Egypt,
"Why is this happening to me?"
"What am I going to do next?"
Perhaps he felt hurt,
perhaps he felt for what his brothers had done.
What else can he do now?

In the book of Genesis, the Bible never mentioned how had Joseph felt.
The Bible only described how he became a servant in Potiphar's house,
what kind of servant was he,
and how he stood firm for God.
Until he worked for Pharaoh, and met his brothers.
Bible never mentioned whether Joseph was angry or had he any complaints.
However, the Bible did mention what he said to his brothers when they were reunited.
"And now, do not be distressed and do not be angry with yourselves for selling me here, because it was to save lives that God sent me ahead of you."
"But God sent me ahead of you to preserve for you a remnant on earth and to save your lives by a great deliverance."
"So then, it was not you who sent me here, but God."
Everything was because God had a better way for them.

There were so many times when I recalled those unpleasant memories,
I was paralyzed. I did not know what to do.
Looking at Joseph, what a big heart he had!
There is only God in his heart, and he knew that everything was being planned by God.
He believed that after all these troubles and sufferings, good thing will come out of it.
Why do I still hold on to the hurts and pains?
Why do I let the hurts and pains to stop me from shining for God?
Why do I let these hurts and pains blinded me from looking at the bright future that God had prepared for me?
I'm such a fool!
What I need to focus on, was not how to get myself healed.
Instead, I should wait in anticipation, that after all these challenges, good things will come out of it.

Trying Earth Color

Oops, got to know that the theme will be "Earthly",
so tried out this new earthly color.
But bad bad compact digital camera...
Can't even see the "pink"!!! (T_T)



The church learned a new word today
"Narcissism"
I knew this word long ago,
because I'm a narcist since young~ lol
And what narcists like to do is --> Camwhoring~ ^^